hitmanclark's Journal

Love?
Love, obsession, a crush?

I can't figure it out anymore. I have strong feelings for this girl, but I have zero idea if she feels the same way. I'll feel badly if I pursue too aggressively, as I don't want to lose our friendship or be creepy or anything.

Gah. She's all I think about these days. I'm sitting in class, I think of her. I'm going to sleep, I'm thinking of her. I'm waking up, I'm thinking of her. Hell, I even think of her when I'm hanging with the guys.

As Tommy James once wrote, "I don't hardly know her. But I think I could love her."

The real problem here is that she's too good for me, and I don't mean that in a patronizing way. She's a good, kind-hearted person, maybe the kindest-hearted person I know at this school. I harbor inner feelings of bitterness and anger that I try to conceal and suppress, with varying results.

Maybe one of these days I'll get the nerve to pursue, but for now I thought I'd go here and vent. I'm such a coward.

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Conway Twitty -- Linda on My Mind

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